Doing ok for once

I have been stressing out a lot lately and I was maxed out.  The other night I just let it all out, I cried, I screamed, went off on people and some people I didn't mean to, but I feel a lot better now.  I have come to realize that I cannot control what happens so I am going to let what ever happens happen.  I think the only thing I am worried about this week is Hurricane Earl.  We are suppose to be getting a little of it, but they aren't even sure what path it could take.  It could touch land, come onto land, or not even touch us at all.  I am worried because the hubby is still gone so I have to go out and get supplies tonight.  I hate huge storms when I am alone. I was thinking about going somewhere and getting an hotel, but I have to babysit....I know I know I shouldn't be worrying about babysitting during the storm, but it is life it is what I do right now as a job.  Other than the freaking hurricane everything seems to be going my way for once :)

Slowly losing it, if I have ever had it

Brandon has been gone for almost a month now and it is really catching up on me.  I am losing my mind.  At this point I am so stressed I just want to set down and cry and be left alone.  Everything has been going wrong and it seems like when daddy is away, you cannot even notice lil man has taking his meds for ADHD.  I have been trying to clean all day I swear and the house doesn't even look like it has even been touched.  I think at some point I need me time.  Hopefully when he comes home that I can have some alone time by myself and just let it all out.

It seems like this week is going to be a long week.  I hate it the first day of the week I am already stressed to the max.  Lil man has another home visit Tuesday and his teachers are coming to introduce themselves and pick up the school supplies.  I still have to double check to make sure I have everything that they ask for.  I know I still have to get a changing of clothes for him and a jacket out for him to keep at school.

Talking about clothes I need to do laundry bad.  I have been putting it off because there is so much that needs to be done around here and that is the last thing that I actually think about is to do the laundry.  So, my goal is tonight before I go to bed at least have 3 loads done.  I still have to shower and get my homework done for the night before I go to bed.  Right now I am trying to get lil man to sleep because he hasn't taken a nap all day and it is one of those days were he is pushing ALL of my buttons.

Stress...stress...go away come back...NEVER

The hubby has been gone almost all month and I swear everything has just went wrong.  I thought I had the whole beetle thing worked out...got antique tags switched them and it should of been over with.  The woman was suppose to come and look at the car last week to approve it, well she never made it out to the house I guess.  I called today and now she is saying that the motor has to be put back in it or it will be towed and our last day to put the motor in is tomorrow.   WTF is she kidding I cannot put a motor back in the car, not my thing to do.  I will be charge with a misdemeanor if I don't do this.  Hopefully, she said she may give me a little bit more time, hopefully she will lets pray that she will.  I think the next time the hubby will listen to me about not to take the car apart work on one thing at a time, see women are always right.

Not only did I have to deal with Virginia Beach today I had to deal with Virginia Beach school system telling me my son couldn't go to Early discoveries because he has an IEP.  Early Discoveries is ran by the Y not the school system so they know nothing at all, stupid people.  His teacher called and they are suppose to call me back tomorrow to let me know what is going on, which he can go and hopefully because of this little miss up he still can go.

Home life.......is stressing me out to the max.  I haven't been in the mode to clean, in which I need to but I am just had it.  Lil Man is always screaming, friends suggested I scream with him, but it starts a screaming contest with him and he thinks it is funny.  He has also started throwing things when he gets mad and even slams the door and kicks it over and over.  I think I need ME time.  I was looking foward to a weekend getaway, but I guess with the beetle motor needing to be put back in I have to put that off and buy a rebuild kit or shove it in a storage unit....or just give the damn thing away I am already pissed at it.

But, anyways I am going to go and write my school paper because I am in the mood to right it and because I am pissed at the law this would be a good time to write about what would cause me to break the law.

A new week and a new outlook

Ok this will make the.  I had this post almost finished and something happen and it just deleted itself and I couldn't get it back, but oh well here I go again......


You gals and guys already know that I had a really bad week last week.  It seemed like everything went wrong.  This week I am hoping it is much better than last week.  It seems like I have lots to do this week.  I have put off mowing the yard and I have to get it done tomorrow.  Also I have to wait for tags to come in for our beetle to put them on there before the state of Virginia tows it because its stupid.

Yesterday a friend and I decided to take her lil one and mine to the petting farm and we all had a blast.  Zander loved feeding the animals.  At one point he let his country blood show though.  He decided that he wanted to chase the chickens that were running around.  It was funny till the chicken decided to chase me.  I will admit I was freaked because I didn't want to get pecked.  After we decided to walk away from the chicken coop the damn chicken decided to follow us, it ran to keep up with us.  Finally, after the chicken decided to go play alone the kids got to ride the pony.  Zander rode it by himself, of course the woman was leading it but he didn't need me and also he got done by himself.  It seems like he is growing up so fast....Anyways, on to the funniest part.  My friend's lil girl, which is still a baby was wearing a cute cowgirl hat.  Well, the goats thought it was food and they tried to take it off of her head and eat it, lol.  Animals they are funny at times.

I feel so stupid right now.  The hubby works nights and he should be emailing me so while I am typing this I keep refreshing the email page to see if he has wrote me, lol.  I hate waiting all day just to get a couple of emails from him, lol.

Day 4 without him...I am going to SCREAM!!!!

It seems like when the hubby is gone EVERYTHING goes wrong.  Last night my toilet decided to freaking break and flood my bathroom, hallway, and some of the living room.  I had to go get the neighbor to help me shut it off.  He was nice enough to bring over his vac to clean up the water and to fix it.  I guess a valve broke.  I just wanted to scream, cry, and I one point I was laughing after it was all over.  Lil man kept on saying I peed, flush and it broke, lol.  I am waiting on something else to happen because everything always breaks all at once.

This morning I had a meeting for Zanders school and I woke up late.  I guess I turned my alarm off or something.  It started at nine and my plan was to drop Zander off at the sitters a lil before 8:30, lol.  I was rushed around this morning and I am so freaking sleepy right now.  I did get to take a nap when lil man laid down, but I am still a little tired.

With tomorrow being pay day for us, I am dreading tomorrow.  I hate having to make sure all the bills are paid sometimes.  I feel like I am always forgetting to pay a bill or something.  Then after I am done babysitting tomorrow I am to tackle the commissary, which I know will be packed...it always is.

Day 3 without him

I swear kids know when their daddy is away...while at least mine does.  This morning started out great.  I felt much better than yesterday and I had so much planned for me a lil man.  After breakfast he goes into his I am not listening to you, screaming, being a baby stage.  He has been doing so great with his attitude and helping me around the house, but today was a different story.  I keep telling myself to be patient tomorrow will be different because every person has a bad day every once in a while because we are human no matter what your age is.  I have found myself today working on my patience, which if you know me patience with me, lol....it does not exist.

 On a good note I got an email for the hubby.  I keep forgetting to check my email because he usually just send it right to my phone, but this time he didn't.  I was up for at least 2 hours before I realized hey I haven't checked my email today.  I have gotten use to not having to check my email, now for the next month I have to get back into the habit of checking it.

I am dreading tomorrow.  I don't babysit and usually on these days I am excited because I get to sleep in, but tomorrow I have to be up early to go to a parent meeting for Zander's preschool.  I don't see why we have to go to a meeting that is 3 hours long.  What is it about preschool that it takes 3 hours to give you everything you need to know about the preschool.  Had an interview when I signed him up, had one last month and got information and I know there is another home visit a week before school starts.  

Summer is almost over.  I cannot believe summer went by so fast.  I know we are still in August, but schools are already started back.  It just seems like summer just got started.  Is it just me or has this year just flown by.  It seems like just yesterday we moved into this house and the beginning of next year it will be a year.

Alone once again

Day 1

Brandon left first thing Monday morning for the ship. I have to have him on base early so I have to wake up early...so as you can tell already a bad day, hubby is leaving and I am sleep deprived.  I think the first day went ok with him being gone.  I had to babysit yesterday so that took up most of my time.  Also, I finished my friends baby shower invite and went over her house to print them.  We decided to go to the farmers market were we found the best peanut butter balls (mouth is watering).  After I got home I felt bad, I had a headache and I felt sick at my stomach.  I didn't sleep at all because of this.  The sleep I did get was great, lol

Day 2

I woke up this morning (Tuesday) and I felt great, minus I didn't sleep while.  Went right a long with my day till  after lunch.  I got sick and it looked like blood that I threw up (I know, I know gross).  Because I was babysitting I decided not to go see a doc.  I felt bad almost all day.  After this long day I can officially say I feel much better after a warm bath and some meds.  I text my sister and told her and she got my 4 year old niece to call to tell me to go see the doc, it was cute, but of course I didn't listen.  

I am so hoping that this next month flies by in no time.  I miss the hubby already.   

Last weekend as family....

This is our last weekend as a family of the summer.  I am really bummed.  Brandon leaves for a workup next week.  It is unbelievable how time flies by just like that.  It seems like deployment is slowly sneaking up on us.  It seems like yesterday he just got home from a deployment and he leaves soon again.  Sometimes I hate the Navy, when they have all of these deployments.  We get to pick orders soon, hopefully it isn't back to back sea duty that would suck big time.  Even though he is going to be gone I still have my Navy family and family back home.  I am hoping the deployment gets pushed back a couple of months were he doesn't have to miss the holidays.  We have be so lucky so fat he has been in for all the major holidays since he has been in.  There are a lot of my friends that their husbands are deploying also, so we have to keep each other busy.


This weekend I am trying to plan things, but at the same time there is so much to do around the house.  I want to spend as much time as possible with the hubby before he leaves.  I was thinking about going to the water park here in Virginia Beach, instead of driving all the way to Williamsburg to go to the big one or I was also thinking just stay at home on the couch and cuddle.  We have dinner plans with some friends this weekend that we haven't got to hang out with in a while, so I am happy about that.

But, right now I am going to go Brandon should be getting back from the junkyard and me and the lil man has to get dressed.

Blog Hop '10

I have to decided to join Blog Hop '10.  It is hosted by Pensieve.  I am excited to meet different bloggers and read about everything that is happening all over the world. I think if you have a chance that you should join Blog Hop '10 also.  

I have never done this before so......here I go  

About Me 

Hey everyone I am Dana.  I am 24 years old, I am a stay at home mommy, and I am a Proud Navy Wife.  My Sailor and I have been married for 5 1/2 years and we have a son together that is almost 5 years old.  I am from Tennessee, born and raised in the country.  The town I am from is neither small or big....so I guess it is in between, lol.  We currently live in Virginia, close to the beach and I love it.  It is different from back home. I come from a huge family I am the 4th child out of 6 and I am many nieces and only 2 nephews, so you can just imagine how it is like when I do go home for a visit. 

 About my blog

I started writing a blog because with my husband in the Navy, it seems like he is always gone and this gives him a chance to read what is going on in my life when he isn't around for us to talk.  My blog is called Married to the Navy because even though I am married to a Sailor the Navy runs our lives...what city we live in, what days we have together as a family, when we can go on vacation....etc. 

My family= Bad Luck

Last night I got a call from my mom saying that my brother was arrested.  When I asked which one it was one of my baby brothers.  I guess my sister's ex husband took a warrant out on him because he messed with his gas tank.  The problem with his is though, when this was suppose to happen he was in CA...how can someone do something when they are miles and miles away from TN.  This is an easy fix though because he has proof where he was and for how long he was there.

Now this is were it gets bad...My other brother called me today.  His bank called and they are filling fraud charges on him.  They said that he made a deposit and when they got the envelope there was no money in it.  He that he had to use his ATM card to deposit it.  Now this is where it gets strange at.  The writing on the deposit slip was not my brothers and the time the deposit was made he was at work.  He just got full custody of his babies and they just froze all of his money for something he did not do.  He went to the bank and the bank sees that it isn't his writing on the slip, the writing looks like a child's hand writing or someone trying to cover up their hand writing.  It is very messy handwriting.  I was thinking his ex wife or soon to be ex wife done this to get him into trouble and try to get the kids back, but she has no access to his account.  My other theory I won't post on here because it has to do with family and I don't want anyone screaming at me, but I told him what I though who it was.  He is going to talk to my sister to see if she recognizes the handwriting on the piece of paper.  It seems like  no matter how hard he works he gets screwed one way or another, it is a bunch of bullsh*t.

Starting my week, Monday SUCKS

Tomorrow is Monday...oh great, I hate Monday and I am pretty sure everyone hates Monday's also.  I am happy thought I don't have to babysit till Wednesday so I have a couple of extra days to sleep in and get things done.  I have a list of things I have to get done tomorrow so far my list consist of:

• Call Portsmouth and going to try to reschedule my surgery for when hubby is home
• Have to run to the grocery store, lil man has already ate all of his banana's
• Get my school work ready for this week
• make a doc appointment, I hate medical

That is just the short list.  I swear trying to keep up with everything sucks.  It seems like everything has to be done right after the weekend, plus didn't I just grocery shop, lol.  Also, I am going to try to take lil man to the park tomorrow because he has been asking and of course today he rained.


Anyways, I am going to enjoy this week with the hubby because he is leaving soon for a couple of weeks.  I hate him being gone, but we all hate our hubbies leaving, but its their job to serve their country.  After so many years I am use to it.  The one thing I hate about the hubby being gone is I get scared sometimes of the tiniest sounds at night, lol...I know , I know I am a big girl and I shouldn't but I do.  Do you gals do the same thing?

But anyways, I am taking my butt to bed I am so sleepy, lol....nothing new there.